Expect to have hope rekindled. The dry seasons in life do not last. The spring rains will come again.
Sarah Ban Breathnach
Truth be known, it’s been rough. How’s it been for you? My dark night of the soul segued into a dark night of the spirit, thank you very much Higher Self for this punch in the face.
I really AM grateful… for this punch in the face… this wake-up, stand-down, stay-still season in my life. Which has lasted nearly four years. Yep, grateful. 😉
While hope dwindled, perhaps that’s okay. Maybe it’s normal and even darn acceptable to feel tired, confused, frustrated, even more introverted than usual, did I mention exhausted? It’s a reasonable response to a difficult period of time in life.
So, today I’m even more grateful than ever because… I have been feeling a smidge more alive, less achy. There has been some clarity, renewed desire, and I’m dreaming again. 🙂
And apples.
Mother-in-law dropped off a load of apples with which I have created three pies, one for tonight and two in the freezer. I had the desire to peel, core, slice, spice, and place all those beauties into pie plates and oven and ohmygod the house smells amaaaaaziiiiing.
Why do some-most-all of us walk through dark nights? Probably too soon to sit with that for me yet… but I do think that it’s part of the plan, the awakening, the journey of remembering who we are; it’s an integral experience that gives opportunity for some things to die and other things to live more loudly, vibrantly, boldly. The dark night strips us, right down to the nubs. Naked. Raw. Shaking. Shaken.
The purpose of the dark night of the soul is to make us bigger, feel more at home, expanded, stronger—and able to give more light to the world.
Yusim
More light to the world… hmmm… well, if this is the case for me, it’s been worth it. Because I love the world, I love humanity, I love nature and animals, I love our plan to forget who we are as Godness and then bump into each other and remember Ourselves way over here on Earth.
I’m still digesting this dark night. It’s a damn lot.
But today, there are apples. And pies. Explanations and plans, ponderings and dreams can wait while this Remembering Soul shines…. with a mouthful of fruit.
If today you find yourself wandering through your dark night of the soul or if your spirit feels a little off-kilter, I see you. I completely understand. Pie might help… and here’s a hug.
Edge-y, joyful, pondering…
Lisa
Licensed Sound Therapist
Certified Mind-Body Coach
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