Swimming is a confusing sport, because sometimes you do it for fun, and other times you do it not to die. And when I’m swimming, sometimes I’m not sure which one it is.
Demetri Martin
I was thirteen before I learned how to swim. Gah, I was terrified of the water though you’d never know it now. I thoroughly enjoy the pool, the lake, the ocean, a creek, a pond, a hot tub.
Okay, so I’m not a fan of COLD water or even cool water, like our college pool boasts… but I’ve learned to accept it and even anticipate its visceral thrill to my body. (Visceral thrill sounds so much nicer than holy-fucking-shit-shock-to-my-body, doesn’t it?) 😉
Last winter, I did not make it to the college even once. It was a slog of a season for me emotionally, mentally, physically. In efforts to not repeat this, I’ve started swimming already, talking myself up and into a quick dip daily.
Yes, it’s chilly. Yes, it’s a challenge to get yourself to the pool. Yes. Take a deep breath, Soul, don that suit and get yer butt poolside NOW… and I love you.
Me to Me, right around noon most days
Habits and changes of mind DO happen. We know the brain has a neuroplasticity and can build new pathways, creating new thoughts, thus manifesting new experiences. Those first few weeks were work and effort and willpower, but lately there’s a flow to the practice, less physical agitation and mental fight, way more peace.
My body is now anticipating that “after” response, when the endorphins are awake and running around in my veins, causing such clarity, a quietness, a gentle calm. And this is a good thing because I have inherited both my dad’s big eyes and my mom’s big heart,.. and both of their struggle with depression and isolation-tendencies.
Swimming helps me wanna stay and participate in life. A short cool dip and my attitude is uplifted. There’ll be no drowning in the deep end of depression for me, thank you.
If today you find yourself out of sorts, maybe even depressed, it’s okay to find someone to talk with. This life isn’t meant to be trekked solo. I’m right here beside you… just beyond the buoys in the next lane… and here’s a hug.
Edge-y, joyful, pondering…
Lisa
Thought Leader & Spiritual Guide
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