Writing Every Day Down

Down The Rabbit Hole

Am I going mad?

You’re mad, bonkers, completely off your head. But I tell you a secret. All the best people are.
Alice in Wonderland

My son and daughter-in-love dressed up for Halloween this year… again. It may be their favorite holiday. Witches and brew? Cackle-cackle… Vampires and pirates? Let me drink your blood, Cap’n!

Last year, they busted it all out. FourthSon was afraid they may have outdone themselves, leaving a hole in their hearts for this year … the only hole was the one Alice went down because this year THEY ROCKED IT OUT COMPLETELY!

Off with their heads!

Oh, Alice… in Wonderland. Struggling with the constraints and expectations placed upon her by society, she is learning the importance of embracing her true self. Wildly and unabashedly finding out who she is – oh the discovery! oh the remembrance! – and then BEING — The Great I AM, The Holy, the God-spark, The Light, The Source of Love.

If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is because everything would be what it isn’t. And contrary-wise, what is, it wouldn’t be. And what it wouldn’t be, it would. You see?

Self-discovery! Stay curious, Alice. Allow those worlds of reality and dream to mingle, to soften their edges and blend. This is your world, Alice.

“I don’t think”… then you shouldn’t talk, said the Hatter.

This is your world, Lisa. Stay curious, Awakening Soul. Heart wide open, fear not the missteps and misunderstandings. Fear more pretending, fear more trying to be what you’re not, fear more bending a knee to rules and religion, fear more sacrificing your soul.

A dream is not reality. But who’s to say which is which?

Yes, stay curious. Keep that childlike wonder… and, who knows, very soon now perhaps you may find yourself in Wonderland after all.

If today you hear your doorbell and see a bunch of costumed souls, go answer the door. Bring candy. Happy Hallowe’en… and here’s a hug.

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Intuitive Healer & Spiritual Guide

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We’ve Got HEAT!

Patience is not the ability to wait, but to keep a good attitude while waiting.
not me – until a few years ago

Here’s the deal. With Mars as my chart ruler and all the way up there in the 10th and 11th houses, well, patience is going to be something I learn not something I’m born with. Fact and true story, dat.

Yep, a messy damn thing, me being human.

But I’m “getting there” though where ‘there’ is is anyone’s best guess… I am more patient in these past few years, more grounded, observant, open, and willing to allow and even embrace exactly what’s unpacking in the moment. No more trying to wiggle and struggle, pry and supplicate for anything differenter than what is.

All this to say… it’s taken 30 years for us to get heat in our barn. Today, the plumbers are out there and by end of day, that beautiful ol’ horse barn is going to be warm enough to house my Vibrational Sound Therapy business, my fitness equipment, an entertainment area for our future grandbabes, and a space for small retreats and guided meditations.

I couldn’t be more excited and thankful!

For 30 years, I’ve desired this… and one obstacle after another blocked its manifestation. A couple of months ago, the ocean parted and we tentatively began our march across to the other side… yeah, that’s dramatic… but, ya know, THIRTY YEARS of waiting will do this to a soul.

Our patience will achieve more than our force.
Edmund Burke

Dear Universe and Me, thank you for the barn, for the heat in it, and for the lesson in growing in patience. There really IS something so incredibly empowering about being able to breathe through a situation, not react, not insist on my own way, and not melt into victim mode at the first sign of difficulty.

If today you find yourself at the end of your patience rope, I get it. Breathe. Ask yourself if this situation will matter in five years, five months, five days, five minutes… and know that I love you, I see you, I feel you… and together, we can remember our patience-super-power… and here’s a hug.

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

What The Leaves Are Teaching Me

Everyone must take time to sit and watch the leaves change.
Elizabeth Lewis

I could leave it at that.

Time.

Sit.

Watch.

The leaves are changing color and I am blessed to hear their message: slow down, sit with us, watch us go from green to yellow, red, orange, brown. Aren’t we magnificent?

Why, yes. Yes, you are.

If today you find yourself in a hurry, me too… but I am allowing myself to become more curious about listening, slowing down, taking time, sitting, watching the leaves show off, and breathing. Just breathing. Will you please join me? And here’s a hug…

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

Me. Brave.

I’ve been doing a lot of brave shit lately.

I prefer the quiet, behind-the-scenes life, thank you very much God and well shit you had other plans and here I am freakin’ “out there” and being vulnerable and raw and real and authentic af.

And, well, it’s been a damn lot.

But each day, it gets a little easier. Out from behind the masks of perfection, got-it-all-together, people-pleasing, and trying-so-hard… and wearing only ME. I’ve been on this journey for about 12 years now. I mean, awake and aware to the fact that this is my intention – to come out, to be real, to allow myself to be seen, heard... and oh my god maybe judged or misunderstood.

Breathe, Lisa.

This is why you’re here, soul known as Lisa. Vulnerability is raw, yes, but someone has to get this party started. Where there is AUTHENTICITY, shame dies. Guilt leaves. Disappointment dissolves. Laughter erupts. Joy abides. Pleasure multiplies. Lives are healed.

So, dear Awakening Soul Lisa, LIVE OUT LOUD. Be your weird-ass, bumbly, fumbly, mumbly self… in all your glory. You, my dearest, are healing the world.

If today, you too find yourself kinda sorta left-of-center, outside-looking-in… then join our community. You sound perfect for us and we’ve held a seat just for ya… and here’s a hug. ❤

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

What Is True Love?

True love is damageable but not breakable.
Luke DeVita

Today I uploaded a podcast. It’s been a minute since I ventured into podcast-land… life got busy and the Universe had other plans. Lots of heart stuff I had to yet allow to bubble up, feel, alchemize, transform… and I am in process (always) but feel more like ME… I’ve done more discovering, remembering, and now BEing who I AM.

It’s a damn lot, this human experience! 😉

Back at it, my first guest is a WONDER and an AWE. He leads me right into The Real, that royal palace I call Home. He is insightful, soft-spoken, and a force of Love.

Meet Luke DeVita.

If today you find yourself lonely, feeling marginalized or lost, without clarity, could use some encouragement… me too. That’s why I’m here… grab my hand and let’s travel down this road together for a bit, shall we? And here’s a hug. ❤

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

Introducing Lindy

Never say there is nothing beautiful in the world anymore. There is always something to make you wonder in the shape of a tree, the trembling of a leaf.
Albert Schweitzer

Trees. They are my best friends.

I personally selected the above tree – called Lindy – about ten years ago. We had to hew a tree and that means only one thing to me: plant two more trees.

Husband sent me off to the greenhouse with $100 in my pocket. At first sight, Lindy and I fell madly-deeply in love with each other and I just had to have Him. Or He had to have me. At $150, it was the deal of a lifetime and a match made in Heaven!

The arborist promised He would grow quickly and spread His limbs like a butterfly fresh out of the cocoon and realizing its wings. As far as the east is from the west, Lindy has embraced His piece of the sky in front of our house… and we couldn’t feel more blessed, honored, and enamored by Him.

Breathless, really. There are times I pull into the driveway and my breath catches in my throat. “My God, Lindy. You are magnificent!”

Trees give peace to the souls of men.
Norah Waln

Lindy has witnessed our FiveBeautifulSouls coming of age and leaving the nest and will continue to be a part of our family’s experiences: marriages, grandbabies, new friendships budding, old friendships passing away, graduations, birthday parties, and Christmas gatherings. He and I will continue to converse long and deep about all matters mysterious and provocative, me with my back against His trunk and His leaves shading my skies.

Trees are sanctuaries. Whoever knows how to speak to them, whoever knows how to listen to them, can learn the truth.
Herman Hesse

Lindy will be here for hundreds of years yet… stable, strong, resilient. He’ll witness other families’ lives evolving and continue to provide high vibration for our world’s evolutionary “wake-up” journey.

Thank you, Lindy, my confidante and spectacular example. I love you.

If today, you find yourself lonely or out of sorts, thirsting clarity or company, find a Lindy of your own… sit, breathe, receive. Allow yourself to melt into Tree, its frequency of Unconditional Love embracing every part of you… and here’s a hug.

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

Here. I. Come.

What will you do with this one wild and precious life?
Mary Oliver

This is one of my favorite quotes and is speaking to me bigly in this particular season of my life. I have SO MANY TABS open right now. The creativity is flowing and the courage is right behind it, pushing and tossing and frothing and rarin’ to GO!

I began a YouTube channel years ago with lackluster results. On a mission to figure out how I can improve my receptivity, I researched for hours one weekend. Ah, yes. Now I realize that if there was something “wrong” that I could do, I did it.

Create various playlists that don’t have anything to do with each other and confuses the algorithm — check!
Forget to post for days and weeks so that YouTube forgets about you — check!
Spend hours researching and never quite get to recording the damn thing — check!
Record it, finally, and then spend hours nit-picking… oh, sweet rut of perfectionism, how deeply you pull me in and hold me hostage — check!

So, I’ve created separate YouTube channels – which is as much work as it sounds – but I am passionate about creating a community for awakening souls to gather, to feel embraced, safe, heard, seen, challenged, held accountable, and find that they are their own JOY.

It’s a damn lot, this being human and learning how to swim in the deep end of social media as an introvert hippie… a damn lot.

Luckily, I’ve got help and a lot of vision… after four long years of inward, I am now headed onward and upward. And I couldn’t be more excited-scared-terrified-eager to get out there.

Here. I. Come.

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bud.
Anais Nin

For the Love of All of us, I’m budding already… and here’s a hug.

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

Happy 30th, ThirdSon

Swiggity-swag.
ThirdSon’s fave quote

So let’s be honest. He’s my favorite child. Just ask him. 😉

Here’s why he thinks he’s my fave… he came out crying thirty years ago. Red, pissed off, scrunched up, and crying. He continued to cry for four years. Not a typo. Four years. He cried for four years.

Four. Years.

(He must have gotten it all out of his system because he is the most chill, peaceful, laid-back soul I have ever had the privilege to hang with. Easy energies.)

But for four years, he and I were besties. He wouldn’t go to anyone else and frankly, no one else wanted him around much either. Understandable. He was crying if I wasn’t there. Crying if I was there sometimes too.

He was crying. A lot.

By four or five years old, he settled into his body and decided sticking around on planet Earth was the plan and he began eating and socializing, sleeping through the night and pooping on his own (long story, don’t ask) and talking. All this to say, the amount of time in crying-mode radically decreased.

Among his first comments as he began to verbalize was “I know I’m your favorite, Mommy” to which I replied, “You sure are but let’s keep that on the DL – you have four siblings and we want them feeling loved and special.” –wink wink nudge giggle —

Him: yep, I’m your favorite

Me: what makes you say this

Him: you always snuggled with me most of the day while everyone else was playing or being with others… it was always you and me!

I’ll admit to whispering to every one of my FiveBeautifulSouls, “you are my favorite!” And it was absolutely true. It’s a mom-thing. Time divides, yes, but Love multiplies. Of course ThirdSon understands himself to be my favorite. I told him so and kept him on my lap much of the day – because he’d cry if I didn’t.

Today, on his 30th birthday, he is charitable, grounded, curious, brave, funny. We all agree that he is the best Christmas gift giver ever, clever and kind. While living in Florida, he continues to text me most days and flies home a few times yearly. Goal-oriented and ambitious, he’s willing to try new and scary things, mess up, get up and try again, and laugh at himself. He is fully inked, arms and legs. He’s working on his shoulders and chest and back yet. He is a masterpiece!

Self confident and full of self esteem, he is an example of Godness and Joy to me. When he wiggled his way into my world, I didn’t know the immensity of amazingness I was going to be experiencing through him.

Swiggity-swag, indeed.

To you, Alex, on the celebration of your 30th birthday. I am deeply thankful you chose me as your Mom, card partner and tennis/pickleball ally. Your presence in my life has made all the difference. Love to you, my favorite child. 😉

Always and forever, no matter what. ❤

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

The Bravest Thing

We think that holding on makes us strong but sometimes it is letting go.
H. Hesse

I did a very brave thing indeed. I signed up for a half marathon a few months ago… not brave. For me. I’ve raced many… this morning, the day of the race, I backed out.

I. Backed. Out.

Me: hey, not going

Husband: whew, I didn’t want to either… doesn’t feel right today for some reason

Me: it would be easier to go, ya know

Husband: for you, it sure would… something on your list ain’t getting done today

Me: I think I’m rewiring something deep inside… pushing-pulling-forcing is so familiar and comfortable, but I feel Love opening up a door within me, a door labeled “let go”

Husband: sometimes Plan B really is just Plan B

When I signed up for the race, I knew in my guts that I didn’t want to do it. The people-pleasing-Me hissed, “he wants to do it and you don’t wanna be left behind so sign up, ignore that other voice that coos and caresses… it’s a wimp.” Every part of my body bucked when I hit the YES button… It knew that saying YES to pressure and guilt and shame meant saying NO to my Truth.

I’ve been wrestling with fear of abandonment for years. Parents divorced before I have memory but I have a deep sensitivity to feeling like I must keep up with the group or die. Extreme, yes. Visceral, yes. Reasonable and true? No. But trauma doesn’t dot the i’s and cross the t’s.

This being human thing…. well, it’s a damn lot. For me. So much learning, pondering, alchemizing, transforming. I give me a load of credit for sticking with it, staying curious, compassionate, and courageous. 🙂

Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.

It’s a season of coming face-to-face with Me, the deep and the wide of who I Am… the Godness and Wonder, Joy and Miracle, Light and Love, Spirit and Awakening Christ. Anything and everything else that I believe about Me is being shed, peeled away, molted, LET GO.

no more people pleasing
no more hoping everyone around me is happy
no more believing it’s my job to make sure they are
maybe I’ll make some waves
maybe I’ll take a nap
maybe some day I’ll sign up for a race
and maybe I’ll race it
and enjoy it
and it’ll be the Truest Me racing it

Letting go is the cornerstone of change.

There’s no longer any space in my Being and life for victimhood, lack mentality, people-pleasing, guilt, shame, or any of the other FEARS. I AM the Phoenix Rising, coming out of the ashes of pain and abuse, flying higher than ever and seeing the Big Picture. I AM no longer afraid that I don’t fit it, that I’m a burden, that my light is too bright and offensive, that my existence is just too much for people.

I don’t fit it.
I am sometimes a burden in that I refuse to be anyone other than ME.
My light is bright and I’ll probably offend some folks.
My existence has been too much for some. Not my problem.

This morning, I did a very brave thing indeed. I didn’t show up for a race because I was busy showing up for myself. Braver still, I may sign up and run a race someday because they really can be a load of fun… but I’ll push the YES button when it’s YES to Me.

If today you find yourself showing up for anyone else but you, so afraid to be left behind, forgotten, abandoned, deemed inadequate and unworthy, I truly understand. Breathe. Sit under Tree, let Mother Earth hold you, remind you that you’re here to remember who you are – Godness and Light, Love Itself – and to swim in the deep end of Joy… racing sneakers on or not… you are loved… and here’s a hug.

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach

Lonely? Sad? Try This…

I have learned that there is more power in a good strong hug than in a thousand meaningful words.

I have found myself hugging more lately. It’s not been intentional, but as I wander into the next season of my life, I seem to crave more human contact. There’s just something about a hug.

I think that hugs are the most healing thing ever.

It’s actually a very intimate act, hugging. Especially if you maintain that hug for quite a few seconds, like twenty… initially I felt that perhaps I was imposing upon the other, but these long-held hugs have been received with gratitude, if not a little but of surprise.

Human touch is vital. Without it, we wither. With it, we thrive. It is good preventive medicine.
Steve Goodler

Our bodies say more to each other than our words ever could. I do a great deal of counseling and when I sense that the other has gotten themselves twisted and turned around, all bunched up, exhausted with explanation and desire for “the answer,” I’ll quietly offer a hug. In that safe space of feeling held, seen, heard, known, believed, there’s deep healing.

Hugging is the silent way of saying “you matter to me.”

From this nest of safety, our beings are more courageous to open. Open our hearts, open our minds, open our perspectives. There are some things we just can’t will ourselves into… but, perhaps, there is movement and flow when we open our bodies to be hugged, to be embraced right there in the moment, messiness and all.

We need 4 hugs daily for survival, 8 for maintenance, 12 for growth.
V. Star

This being human journey is a damn lot. We’re hurting, scared, easily triggered, stuck up in our minds, in the past, or way out ahead of ourselves in the future. Hugs have a way of bringing us back to here and now, this moment.

A good long hug marks the occasion… it’s like saying “let’s remember this, you and me right here and now, forever” without saying a word. It’s like saying, “there’s nothing more important in this moment than feeling your heart beating and listening to your breath.” Hugging good and long slows everything down, peeling away all the fluff and leaving just the Raw Real.

Sometimes a silent hug is the only thing to say.
Robert Brault

As I continue on my journey of loving others as myself — for, truly truly I tell you, there are no others — I will speak less, listen more, and hug much more. And there will be healing, there will be awakening, there will be connection, there will be community, there will be peace on earth. Amen.

If today you find yourself lonely, perhaps offer a hug… to your grandchild, neighbor, significant other, friend, pet… and – oh this is brave – hold on. Breathe a few deep breaths together. Find Harmony, Common Vibe, Calm… ah, and here’s a hug from me.

Edge-y, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

EnergieGal Holistic Wellness

Sound Therapist & Mind-Body Coach