Free Falling

We’re in a freefall into future. We don’t know where we’re going. Things are changing so fast, and always when you’re going through a long tunnel, anxiety comes along.

Joseph Campbell

Freefall.

Change.

Long tunnel.

Anxiety.

Check, check, check, and check… Yes. This is where I’ve found myself. Technically, I’ve been falling without a parachute for nearly five years. Until about a year ago, I fought it. Kicking, screaming, trying to figure it all out, control it.

Which only exhausted me… but did finally – finally – help me to see that figuring it out, trying to control it, was futile. Tired me to the bone, right down into my soul.

And so, I stopped. I ceased fighting it and allowed the fall, leaned into the unknown. Opened wide my arms, my heart, and my mouth: BRING IT ON! If this is hell, then I want in – ALL IN – on the adventure! If I’m here, it’s for the fullness of the whole damn experience. HERE I AM!

And all you have to do to transform your hell into a paradise is to turn your fall into a voluntary act. It’s a very interesting shift of perspective and that’s all it is… joyful participation in the sorrows and everything changes.

Joseph Campbell

It was shortly after this that I had my “naked dream.” Ya know, one of those I-don’t-have-a-stitch-on-and-everyone-can-see-me… and, well hell with it, I embraced the nakedness. Serving food sans even an apron, naked as the day I was born, and I felt… I FELT FREE.

What could cause me fear now? I’ve faced being seen in all my naked glory and I stood there, tall and proud (well, truthfully not tall since I’m just over five feet but you’re hearing me) and breathing deeply and oh-my-god who knew freedom could feel this FREE? Who knew I could feel this POWERFUL?

Who knew I could feel this compassionate, tender, gentle, humorous, insightful, hopeful? Who knew nakedness/authenticity/integrity/embracing my Self could open up the Deep in me?

I am free falling into my Self… into the Depths of ME.

I had faced my fears, held my traumas as holy messengers, allowed for the recalibration of my body-mind complex, and created wide open space for the endless possibilities of Unconditional Love to bubble up from within me (where they’d always been, just hidden behind door number one (fear of rejection) and door number two (fear of abandonment) and door number three (fear of being misunderstood, humiliated, gossiped about.)

Doors wide open, rooms cleaned out, naked dream integrated… check, check, and check.

The funny thing is… I still don’t know what my future holds, how I’ll spend my days, who’ll be my friends, where I’ll serve (although I’m quite sure I will be clad and maybe even aproned!) But I’m not afraid. I’m not triggered by this unknown.

Today, now, I’m free falling.

Falling.

Free.

The bad news is you’re free falling out of the sky with no parachute. The good news is there is no ground.

Chogyam Trumpa

Free falling.

No parachute.

No ground.

Check, check, and check… FREEDOM!

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Here is a short practice that you can do right now to cultivate intentional mind-body connection for the purpose of surrendering to the free fall:

Nature beckons. Mother Gaia is at her best when she’s holding you. Lay upon the grass, under a tree, arms spread wide side to side. Make an angel of your arms and legs, swooshing them in-out. Breathe deeply through your nose. Open wide your mouth and laugh your exhale. Now roll over, face down into the grass and imagine yourself way up in the sky. Hey, look at you tumbling safely through the clouds! You’re flying, you’re free falling… with no ground. Imagine what the earth looks like from so far up up up… keep laughing. There’s only blue sky and adventures on your horizon. Life is a free fall indeed. Peace be with you, Dear Soul.

Edgy, joyful, pondering…

Lisa

Modern Mystic & Life Coach

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